Time never stops....but can we?

I was listening to a movie while at work today and this quote hit me hard:

"You can't stop being who you are because your afraid"

This is what I have to think about. It was a hard week to get through last week, and my life has changed. Every holiday, home phone call, future memory has forever been changed. It was a HUGE wake up call, and I have spent a lot of time these past couple of weeks soul searching. Pondering what in life is important, and how can I live everyday to the max. But I realized that as long as I make decisions that make me happy then I am living each day to the max. Life may be short, and you may have a bucket list, but life is made up of every days. Yes, vacations are nice, and babies, weddings, graduations are always something to look forward to, but when living it is your everyday routine that makes up who you are.

I am afraid that my life won't be enough, that I will always have goals, vacations, dreams that I will never realize, but I can't stop and change my everyday life because I am afraid of all that I have not yet accomplished. So I am going to focus on the goals in front of me. I am going to focus on living this healthy lifestyle so that maybe I can elongate my life. Maybe I can live a fuller life just by paying attention to the little things.

Being afraid won't help me with my marriage, or help me raise my babies. Life will happen and accidents and tragedies come with that. I can't be afraid of those things because then I won't be living any longer. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Taking chances on things that can and may cause you heartache is a way of creating who you are.

I am getting more and more into Yoga and I am reading great book: Living Yoga by Chrisy Turlington. She also has lost her dad and what got her through it is paying more attention to her breath. I think this a good step. I am going to start meditating and talking to God. Hopefully this can help find a more peaceful mindset. I hope it helps me live my everyday no matter how mundane someone else might think it is. Let others think your life is mundane, that's what they need to do to make themselves feel better about themselves. If you are happy and if you are continuing to make decisions that make you happy than I am okay with that!

My routine starts again today! I am jumping back on the wagon! Thank you all for your patience with my hiatus!