Macy mentioned that we have severely been lacking in working out!
I wish that I could argue with her, and show her proof of how well we are doing, but unfortunately I can not. Working out has not been going on! It is the sad truth.
Honesty sometimes feels like a slap in the face. It hurts more than looking in the mirror or seeing the picture that makes you cry. But staring me straight in the face is Macy and her stupid, honest observation!
So I would be lying if I told you that the lack of posts was due to all my new working out adventures when in reality I was sitting on a bar stool enjoying my happy hour!
My excuse and rationalization for working out less was that I was going to ease back into working out. Since I hadn't worked out in over a week and a half, and since working out was a new habit that I was working on developing I told myself that I was going to ease into it. Maybe workout on Monday and Tuesday at class, take Wednesday off, workout Thursday and then have the weekend off. Well, that did NOT work! I would start off good, but then only make it to Tuesday! But I was easing into it right?
Well it has officially been over 2 weeks and I feel horrible. I have barely worked out, and my body and attitude can tell. It is hard for me to get up in the morning, I am sluggish, I don't care if we do anything active, and all I can think about is when can I take a nap!
This is not how I was when I was active. This is how I felt when I was in high school. I dreaded working out, and doing active things because I didn't want anyone to know how out of shape I really was. Don't even mention a boat or summer around me! I am dreading this summer and Mr. Man's favorite holiday! I love going, and love all the people, but I am so self conscious about myself that I don't feel that I totally let go and just be me. I am afraid that I am missing out on life because of this. I don't want to anymore.
So I have printed this picture and taped it to my mirror to remind myself that its baby steps and its day by day!
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